變形記 與業餘軍火商

//This post is not neccessarily a review of any kind to The Metamorphosis//

卡夫卡嘅變形記，主角Gregor，有朝早訓醒，變左隻蟲。(唔算劇透，本書第一頁就有講)
我最鍾意嘅一段，係主角媽媽同細妹，討論要唔要搬走Gregor房d傢俬，令Gregor有更多活動空間。

我翻譯左：

(上文講到，媽媽同細妹Grete想幫Gregor清走d傢俬。Gregor生理上都想咁，但心理上又希望留低自己以前生活嘅證據，又怕出聲會嚇親媽媽同細妹，所以一直保持沉默。
兩母女付諸行動，搬左15分鐘，媽媽改變主意，認為Gregor未必希望佢地咁做，而且空冇一物嘅房間令佢傷心，表示想維持原狀。)

細妹就唔係咁諗。佢不嬲都係Gregor嘅代言人，係父母面前尤其理直氣壯。媽媽嘅建議足以令佢維持初衷 —– 唔止儲物櫃同書枱，除左郁唔到嘅梳化，其他所有傢俬都要清走。細妹嘅堅持並非單單來自年輕人特有嘅反叛，仲來自佢係呢段時間超乎想象嘅投入同付出，所產生嘅自信。佢係實在咁基於Gregor依家更需要大量嘅空間爬來爬去，以及佢從來未見過Gregor使用傢俬，而作出判斷。仲有，呢個年紀嘅女仔總會有d執著，有d自我中心，一有機會就會堅持自己，甚至不惜放大哥哥嘅慘況，令自己甘願付出更多。畢竟，呢間房，Gregor一個人對住四面牆爬來爬去嘅呢間房，本來只有Grete一個肯入去。

原文：

Unfortunately his sister was of the contrary opinion; she had grown accustomed, and not without reason, to consider herself an expert in Gregor’s affairs as against her parents, and so her mother’s advice was now enough to make her determined on the removal not only of the chest and the desk, which had been her first intention, but of all the furniture except the indispensable sofa. This determination was not, of course, merely the outcome of childish recalcitrance and of the self-confidence she had recently developed so unexpectedly and at such cost; she had in fact perceived that Gregor needed a lot of space to crawl around in, while on the other hand he never used the furniture at all, so far as could be seen. Another factor might also have been the enthusiastic temperament of girls her age, which seeks to indulge itself at every opportunity and which now tempted Grete to exaggerate the horror of her brother’s circumstances in order that she might do all the more for him. In a room where Gregor lorded it all alone over empty walls no one except herself was likely ever to set foot.

經得起時間考驗嘅文學作品總係充滿魅力。經過一段時間嘅發酵，變形記入面嘅人物好似有左生命咁成為左我記憶入面嘅朋友。

上面quote呢一段，我睇左幾次，我覺得呢個場面好有代表性：
人嘅諗法係太過闊太過廣嘅立體，靠語言傳遞到嘅內容非常有限。一班人本來係親人朋友嘅關係，佢地意見不合嘅時候，基於唔解理對方，當有人開始質疑大家嘅「目的」、係咪「自私」嘅時候，就係災難靜靜雞降臨嘅時候。

如果Gregor因為不滿媽媽同細妹嘅決定，出聲斥責；
如果Grete見到媽媽只係嫌重就諗借口放棄，懷疑佢對Gregor嘅關心；
如果媽媽見到Grete盲目堅持決定，懷疑佢對Gregor嘅關心；
如果佢地只係見到對方嘅自私。
佢地「互相信任咁相處嘅未來」會消失。

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係一場力量懸殊嘅戰爭中，一個普通打工仔，衡量左自己嘅能力同取向，成為左業餘軍火商。亦有人成為左業餘軍隊。

時間不斷推移，有一日，業餘軍火商係供應軍火呢件事上面，收到黎自業餘軍隊嘅一d抱怨。佢龍顏大怒，甚至開始懷疑業餘軍隊嘅心態是否正確。

我地成日飾演痴漢嘅朋友Ku，輕輕咁提醒佢「業餘軍隊，死傷慘重。」

仲記得另一位手足，面對類似情況，用「以on9打散憤怒」，佢話「嘈咩嘈，你兩個陣間入殘廁互含，我拍片。含完當打和，ok?」

我真心覺得當初提出「不分化不割席」口號果位手足係神人黎。
好想同所有香港人一齊避開呢個人性永恆陷阱。